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  <pubDate>Fri, 16 Jan 2009 23:34:19 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Exciting things ...</title>
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  <description>So, this week in review:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- Monday, I was awarded a place in Google&apos;s Diversity Delegates program for LCA 2009. As a result, I&apos;m going to hobart for all of next week!&lt;br /&gt;- Since I&apos;m going to be down there anyway, I&apos;m going to be in Melbourne for a couple days on the way back&lt;br /&gt;- This morning, at 3.30am AEST, my first public-facing project went live. No hitches, but a few requests for enhancements ... that&apos;s on today&apos;s to-do list.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It&apos;s been a happening week, that&apos;s for sure. A brisk start to 2009 :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;PS - and I have a sinus infection. Oh well.</description>
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  <pubDate>Sun, 11 Jan 2009 09:19:51 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Another year on the progress meter ....</title>
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  <description>Last year was awesome and suck at the same time.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The suck was falling victim to severe depression and anxiety. The awesome was dealing with that (mostly). The suck was one job ending. The awesome was another job starting. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Many other things happened.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This year, I intend to&lt;br /&gt;- Achieve some body-based goals&lt;br /&gt;- learn to play clarinet, and hopefully do at least 1 exam&lt;br /&gt;- go overseas at least once&lt;br /&gt;- go to the granite belt for a holiday&lt;br /&gt;- get more active in the brisbane rails brigade, and do better at humbug&lt;br /&gt;- get at least one more corset&lt;br /&gt;- go to melbourne twice&lt;br /&gt;- be less anxious and depressed than I was last year&lt;br /&gt;- look into doing a masters or phd part-time, probably in maths or computational science.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Creativity, meetings, and travel. Sounds like a good mix.</description>
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  <pubDate>Fri, 09 Jan 2009 12:11:16 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Meanderings ...</title>
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  <description>Considering fitness, and how I don&apos;t have any.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I wonder if I could walk into my gym and say ..&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;By May, I want to be able to do the following:&lt;br /&gt;- splits (forward and side)&lt;br /&gt;- walk 10m on my hands&lt;br /&gt;- do a handstand from a seated start&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;... whether that would be achievable. Hm.</description>
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  <pubDate>Sun, 28 Dec 2008 11:37:03 GMT</pubDate>
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  <description>Home alone. Jerub&apos;s in Melbourne. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I hate being alone at home. I really do. Hearing things, startling at noises I can&apos;t immediately identify, all that lovely sort of stuff.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It&apos;s been interesting having him gone. I&apos;m not as sooky as I thought I would be, but I certainly feel rather lackluster. I spend much more of the day silent, too. I&apos;ve been sleeping a lot, and my diet has been crap.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It certainly doesn&apos;t feel like Christmas.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;On the other hand, I have seen quite a few cool people, and gotten some awesome toys. I&apos;m the proud owner of a Yamaha YCL-250 Bflat Clarinet. I&apos;ve wanted to learn to play the clarinet since I was about 8 or so. I am enjoying figuring out the instrument, although it&apos;s occasionally been a touch frustrating. I bought myself a book of boring exercises today, because I was getting rather tired of &apos;the saints go marching in&apos; and &apos;mary had a little lamb&apos;. The exercises may not be interesting in and of themselves, but there is at least quite a variety.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Another slightly frustrating thing is that as a new instrument, I do have to break it in a little - so only 20-30min a day for me for a couple weeks. This is not necessarily a bad thing, as I&apos;m pretty sure that I don&apos;t yet have some of the muscles required. That&apos;s alright; these things come in time. And I can practice fingering any time. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This is the first time I&apos;ve learnt a new instrument since I was 4. It is a bit of an odd feeling, to say the least. I can already read music quite well, and on my first instrument (piano), the music I&apos;m looking at is, to say the least, simplistic. I strongly suspect my previous training in moving my fingers independently and in sequential combinations is helping me with the new instrument. That, or clarinet is a really easy instrument to learn. I have so far managed to not make too much in the way of horrible noises. I managed to play a scale the other day. I&apos;m hoping to start lessons in February, so I don&apos;t teach myself too many bad habits. I&apos;m vaguely considering doing examinations - but I suppose that will have to wait until I know a little more about the instrument and the process. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Anyway, it&apos;s certainly been something to occupy at least a part of my day.</description>
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  <pubDate>Sun, 14 Dec 2008 23:21:14 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Still breathing ...</title>
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  <description>Notes from the last howeverlong:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;- Left old job, have new job. It&apos;s going well.&lt;br /&gt;- New job is busy. Working lots. Major deadlines, etc. Awesome people. Halfway alright coffee.&lt;br /&gt;- &lt;a href=&quot;http://bluehackers.org&quot;&gt;http://bluehackers.org&lt;/a&gt; - website for hackers who&apos;ve dealt with depression just launched. Awesome.&lt;br /&gt;- google diversity for lca thingy - considering applying, but can i get the time off work? stay tuned.&lt;br /&gt;- aircon at work is broken, but there is beer in the fridge.&lt;br /&gt;- head is better. I feel better than I have since sept last year, if a little tired right now. Maybe next year I&apos;ll be off the drugs.&lt;br /&gt;- need new glasses&lt;br /&gt;- might be a uq posterchild. Very cool. &lt;br /&gt;- going to RoR Brigade tonight, like I&apos;ve been meaning to do for a year or so.&lt;br /&gt;- need a holiday, plz.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;busybusybusybusybusybusy.</description>
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  <pubDate>Wed, 19 Nov 2008 21:09:31 GMT</pubDate>
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  <description>It&apos;s been a while.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In that time, I&apos;ve finished work at one job, had a holiday, and am about to start work at another job. Other than that, not a great deal has been happening, really. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Looking forward to new work :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;ll do a better entry at some point, I&apos;m sure.</description>
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  <pubDate>Tue, 02 Sep 2008 00:14:52 GMT</pubDate>
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  <description>Friday evening, I&apos;m having a wake for my uncle, Shane Winter, as he always liked a good night out on the town. You&apos;re all invited, should you wish to attend. Venue is as yet undecided. There&apos;s a facebook event here: &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.new.facebook.com/event.php?eid=29421525737&quot;&gt;http://www.new.facebook.com/event.php?eid=29421525737&lt;/a&gt;</description>
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  <pubDate>Mon, 01 Sep 2008 02:27:11 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>RIP to my mother&apos;s brother.</title>
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  <description>&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.news.com.au/story/0,23599,24273950-1248,00.html&quot;&gt;http://www.news.com.au/story/0,23599,24273950-1248,00.html&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Rest in peace, Shane Winter.</description>
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  <pubDate>Sun, 24 Aug 2008 19:03:27 GMT</pubDate>
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  <description>It has been a while. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;A quick precis of this month:&lt;br /&gt;- Jerub incremented, and there were awesome visitors&lt;br /&gt;- EKKA!!!! Now we have a full wine shelf :D Considering the next holiday being to the granite belt or gold coast hinterland ...&lt;br /&gt;- I did my tax and my finances - savings &amp;gt; debt by the end of this week, I think. Hooray!&lt;br /&gt;- Jerub got sick&lt;br /&gt;- I got sick (I&apos;m almost better)&lt;br /&gt;- Jerub is sick again&lt;br /&gt;- work has deadlines&lt;br /&gt;- 3 more of my friends are pregnant - it is totally going around.&lt;br /&gt;- I think I volunteered to help run LCA2010, should we win the bid&lt;br /&gt;- I cleaned out the garage, only to have the remote run out of batteries&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It&apos;s been a full month. Less suck than July. Although I could have lived without the sick. Lost my voice, sinus infection, sore throat, cough, blah. I can&apos;t take OTC drugs for anything, just about (allergies, etc), so now I have a controlled drug to take, which is kind of cool (sounds cooler than what it actually is, though).&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;ve rediscovered lemon and ginger tea with honey. MMmmmmmmmmm. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;ve had many awesome and cool friends drop around to keep me company, cheer me up, and adminster hugs. I love you guys :) Thank you so much! You are all full of win. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I need new glasses. These frames are reaching the end of their usable lifespan - a record 4 years. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I am in love with living on the southside again. I have a view, everything&apos;s nearby, I can walk places, the busway is awesome, and the traffic noise is soooo much less. I&apos;ve found two good cafes, but I&apos;m always open to more suggestions :) I am loving having 8 supermarkets in a 10min radius, including an IGA that stocks jolt in multiple flavours. We&apos;ve found fantastic thai and indian resturants, which have been awesome when we&apos;ve been sick.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Admittedly, my neighbours are totally fail. Hopefully that&apos;s going to be resolved soon, though.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I bought myself a new winter jacket, since my old one died. It&apos;s sexy and warm. I need new jeans though.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The Ekka was AWESOME. I should consider competing with chocolate fudge, white bread, and a couple other things, though. I mean, geez, that&apos;s the best we can do? That sucks. And hey, I might win something. Also, rides. They are SO MUCH BETTER when I can see what is going on. Yay for contact lenses! Although I did acquire some bruises in fascinating places - no, you can&apos;t have a look :P &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;m awake at a truly ungodly hour. Stupid coughing waking me up. Still, I should e going back to sleep shortly, and it has improved greatly from say, thursday.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This week is looking up. Work deadlines, money, seeing Dad and maybe Mum and my brother this week, as well as awesome friends - I can&apos;t wait :) BRING IT ON.</description>
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  <pubDate>Wed, 23 Jul 2008 04:30:24 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>July: month of colossal SUCK</title>
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  <description>What&apos;s happened so far, this month:&lt;br /&gt;- 10 days not being able to eat&lt;br /&gt;- Jerub&apos;s work burned down&lt;br /&gt;- got that flu and spent a week on the couch&lt;br /&gt;- had the real estate agent bitch me out for something I was unaware of&lt;br /&gt;- dropped my laptop, which broke it&lt;br /&gt;- I&apos;ve seen nearly every sunrise, due to a vast change in sleeping patterns, which haven&apos;t settled down yet&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So 3 weeks of this month have been chockers of suck and lose. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I suppose it can only go up from here. And I have been handling all the various dramas with rather more than my usual grace, which I guess is good. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;*sigh*&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;All I want right now is a boring, uneventful, no-drama week. A holiday, if you like, from this cruft. Where I can work in peace without something crappy happening. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Oh, and I&apos;ve got work deadlines, which have slipped chronic, because I&apos;ve been too sick to work most of this month. And that&apos;s doing terribly interesting thing to finances. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Right now I want someone warm and comfortable to curl up with for a week or two until I feel better.</description>
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  <pubDate>Mon, 02 Jun 2008 14:02:06 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Time for another one ...</title>
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  <description>So I want to throw another party.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This time, a wine and cheese appreciation party.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Deal is: bring a matched wine and cheese, with accompaniments (eg, fig jam, quince paste, walnuts, pear, whatever and appropriate crackers/bread). &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Go to as much or as little effort as you like.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;ll supply wineglasses, and the venue of My House.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;How&apos;s that idea sound to people?</description>
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  <pubDate>Tue, 20 May 2008 22:57:12 GMT</pubDate>
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  <description>Happy Birthday to Me!</description>
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  <pubDate>Mon, 12 May 2008 23:57:03 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Birthday party!</title>
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  <description>I&apos;m having a birthday party this weekend. I&apos;m turning 27, and two friends of mine are also celebrating their birthdays at this gathering, maybabies that we are. There&apos;s a facebook event, &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=10209152788&quot;&gt;http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=10209152788&lt;/a&gt; . It&apos;s got a fair few people attending, so it might get a touch crowded.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;6pm to midnight, food provided, byo alcohol and a fold-up chair. At my New House. Email/etc privately for the address.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Please rsvp here, on facebook, or via email (or mobile if you&apos;ve got my number), so I&apos;ve got an idea of numbers.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;:)</description>
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  <pubDate>Mon, 12 May 2008 08:56:12 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Of cars and rocks and miscellaneous stuff.</title>
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  <description>The car hit a rock Sunday morning, 3am. so, in the last little while, we have:&lt;br /&gt;- found the one and only place in brisbane that sells tyres that is open on a sunday and purchased two tyres&lt;br /&gt;- had mother&apos;s day lunch 2hrs late with the in-laws&lt;br /&gt;- had the car serviced, wheels aligned and balanced&lt;br /&gt;- gotten two of the three quotes required to get aami to fork out for a new mag&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;jerub&apos;s been wonderful, handling most of the administrivia, while I sat in a corner and dealt with anxiety. Well, tried to anyway.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sigh.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Aside from that mess, the weekend was great.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;ve lost 3kgs in the last two weeks. At this rate, I might be at my goal in a couple of months. That would be nice, so I don&apos;t have to buy new clothes (I dislike clothes shopping intensely). &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Some musing triggered off by various blog posts around the web, as well as the whole trying-to-lose-weight thing ...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;ve been thinking about body acceptance lately. I&apos;m pretty secure in my appearance; I think I&apos;m a fairly attractive young woman. I don&apos;t hate any one part of my body. I dislike the size it is, but that&apos;s more a question of the magnitude of the shape, rather than the shape itself. I think my feet are pretty. I like my hands, even though they are small enough to make a lot of things a bit harder for me to do. I like my nose, my lips, my eyes, my eyebrows (invisible that they are), my hair, my ass, my calves. I have some quibble about my breasts, because they aren&apos;t in a commercially-available size, and they are kinda a bit saggier than I&apos;d like. My thighs annoy me occasionally, because they aren&apos;t an ideal shape for stay-up stockings. My tummy jiggles when I run, which is uncomfortable. I wish my arms were stronger, so I could lift things more. I could live without the hormonal acne. But I think my freckles are cute, and I like being lily-white (so long as I don&apos;t have to go outdoors). The scars, I do not like. I am learning to live with them, though.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;There are relatively few particulars I&apos;d change about my body. I&apos;d like to be smaller, because I find that when I&apos;m lighter, I take up less space, and my body feels more comfortable to be in. I&apos;d like to be stronger, because, well, handsprings are really cool. Also, I am too lazy to buy new clothes, and most of my nice clothes are smaller than I am, currently.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I have my fat and ugly days, usually hormonally influenced, this is true. I will be in tears over how much I differ from my in-the-head ideal. I know it&apos;s irrational, and totally doesn&apos;t match with reality, but unfortunately, reality doesn&apos;t have a lot to do with it when I&apos;m like that. And, judging by some of what I&apos;ve been analysing about my own behaviour lately, it&apos;s more an expression of generalised anxiety than anything else - I&apos;m basically looking for something to get upset about, and it&apos;s the most convinient channel for that, sometimes (incidentally? not today, my anxiety has a slightly more valid target to overreact to). &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I like my body. I wouldn&apos;t go so far as to say as I&apos;m proud of it, but it is, at least, a good place to start.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;That seems to me to be an odd attitude to have, particularly for women, in this day and age. I don&apos;t wear makeup or jewelery or accessories; I think I look fine just as I am. I don&apos;t dress fashionably; I do often aim for a certain level of elegance in my day-to-day wear, but I&apos;m happy to rock jeans and a geeky tshirt as well. I know that when I take some time to choose what I am wearing, and how I style my appearance and expressions, I can turn heads on the street, and have, at various times. And I know that this is true, no matter what the number on the scales is. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So I want to change my body into something a little smaller. I can look sexy, desirable, elegant, beautiful at any weight; but I don&apos;t feel comfortable as I am. Comfort wins over laziness, so I&apos;m doing the non-lazy thing of changing my body shape in order to feel comfortable. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Explaining this to people when I say &quot;Sorry, it looks lovely, but I&apos;m on a diet at the moment&quot; is getting old, again. No, I&apos;m not fat. No, I don&apos;t think I&apos;m unattractive. But my thighs rub together a bit, I can&apos;t buy a bra retail, and my (very fine) ass doesn&apos;t fit into my second pair of jeans, or my nice going-out pants, and I don&apos;t feel like buying new clothes when I&apos;ve got perfectly good ones right here. It doesn&apos;t seem to be a motivation that people, in general, can understand. I fall back on &apos;It&apos;s for my health; heart disease in the family, you know&apos; far too often. That&apos;s *a* reason, sure, but it isn&apos;t *the* reason, by a long stretch. It&apos;s like the only reasons a woman has to change her figure these days is, basically, appearance. There&apos;s a feminist rant in there somewhere, but today has been long, and so is this entry, so I&apos;ll think about that another time.</description>
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  <pubDate>Mon, 21 Apr 2008 22:36:34 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Cooking and such</title>
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  <description>I&apos;ve been cooking lately. Last week, for instance, I cooked the following never-before-tried things:&lt;br /&gt; - risotto with pine nuts, chicken and baby spinach&lt;br /&gt; - chicken satay sticks (I cheated and bought the satay sauce)&lt;br /&gt; - plum sorbet&lt;br /&gt; - dark chocolate and orange sorbet&lt;br /&gt; - fresh asaparagas spears sauteed in garlic and butter&lt;br /&gt; - poached eggs in a saucepan&lt;br /&gt; - gnocchi! by hand! from scratch!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;ve cooked the following things I&apos;ve cooked before:&lt;br /&gt; - german grain bread (in the breadmaker, again with the cheating)&lt;br /&gt; - cheese souffle&lt;br /&gt; - thai green curry with coconut rice&lt;br /&gt; - plum lamb stirfry with fresh veges and noodles&lt;br /&gt; - cabonara sauce&lt;br /&gt; - lemon and pistachio biscotti&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This week I&apos;m going to try to make raspberry frozen yoghurt, mint sorbet, and maybe lemon sorbet and possibly vanilla bean gelato if I&apos;m feeling up to it. I also want to make a penang curry, something indian, better gnocchi, maybe ravioli, more bread and anzac biccies of course. I&apos;ve decided for the forseeable future, if I want frozen goodies (eg, icecream) I will make them from scratch, myself. I think this is a good way to cut back my consumption of such things, as well as learning all sorts of wonderful stuff.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I enjoy good food. It makes the day far more interesting when I can enjoy what I eat so much more.</description>
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  <pubDate>Mon, 21 Apr 2008 09:54:33 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>living life through the senses</title>
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  <description>I am a sensualist. This will come as no suprise to those who know me well, I am sure. I love to touch, to taste, to smell, to listen. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tonight, steve had a work function, so I decided rather than mope, I would celebrate my senses. I lit a candle (ylang ylang and lavender) and planned an indulgent feast for one. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Red wine, a souffle made with red liester cheese, fresh asparagas, mushrooms, with dark chocolate and orange sorbet to follow. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The bechemal sauce is made, the cheese melted into it. I&apos;m waiting for it to cool a little more before I add the eggs, drinking a glass of red wine and looking at the candle. My favourites list has been playing while I cook, and I&apos;ve been dancing as I created in the kitchen. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I made the sorbet yesterday; I can confirm that it is a near-perfect combination of orange and good dark chocolate; soft in the mouth, melting in an explosion of flavour. Mmmm. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I am happy to go at my own pace this evening. I enjoy cooking for my friends, oh yes; I also enjoy cooking just for myself. I can dance, I can sing, I can taste, I can just slow down and savour the moment. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It&apos;s been a very long time since I&apos;ve had a night like this - and it feels good.</description>
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  <pubDate>Fri, 18 Apr 2008 00:15:05 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Food, glorious food ...</title>
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  <description>I made gnocchi from scratch on Wednesday, with a simple cabonara sauce. I think they could do with some work; maybe a touch of garlic, or cheese, or herbs in the gnocchi - but I can always make them again. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;ve been thinking a lot about food, and about different dietary restrictions, and how to make food awesome. Steve&apos;s lactose intolerant, and needs lots of carbs. I need a minimum of carbs (or at least, a controlled amount). Mum (who I&apos;d like to have over for food more often) is gluten intolerant, and Dad hates &apos;fancy&apos; food. My brother can be fairly adventurous, but needs to be talked into it, and occasionally needs to be dairy-free, depending on his health. Another friend is allergic to sesame. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Cooking for the range of tastes and requirements can be a challenge. One-pot meals, like the risotto I made the other night, are sometimes chancy affairs, since each individual serve can&apos;t really be tweaked all that much. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It&apos;s all good fun. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This weekend, I want to make bread. Not sure what, yet - we&apos;ll see.</description>
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  <pubDate>Wed, 16 Apr 2008 01:42:21 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Awakening</title>
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  <description>I&apos;ve been under a lot of stress lately. A lot of stress. Since early March. One of my symptoms of stress is that I can&apos;t spare the energy to be creative. My work suffers, and I can&apos;t bear the thought of cooking something that doesn&apos;t come from a jar or a box. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The cloud seems to be lifting a bit, though. Yesterday I got all creative in the kitchen, and made my first ever sans-recipe risotto (pine nuts, baby spinach, chicken with asparagas spears seared in butter and garlic to serve). I also taught myself how to poach eggs with a saucepan and a slotted spoon. I feel like making some toasted-flour biscuits featured in the chocolate and zucchini blog; I&apos;ve been seriously thinking about how to make gluten-free gnocchi and inviting mum over for a three-course, gourmet gluten-free feast (egg-drop soup to start; walnut and blue cheese gnocchi; pistachio and lemon sorbet to finish. Or something like that). &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I find myself contemplating how to do a thai-flavoured risotto; shredded kaffir lime, coriander, seeded red chilli, fresh green beans and fresh grated coconut are springing to mind. Or Indian; pumpkin cooked in cumin and cinnamon, mashed and added to the rice with a generous sprinkle of paprika, garam masala, fresh tomatoes, and suitably-spiced meatballs.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;m thinking about the lovely granite benchtops, and thinking about making berry tarts and croissants by hand. I&apos;m thinking about growing fresh herbs, mint and thyme and sage and rosemary and basil and coriander. About duck pancakes. About savoury waffles for breakfast on a Sunday. About cloves and oranges and crepes for dessert. About ginger and nutmeg and biscuits.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I am, for the first time in ages, excited about the possibilities of my spice rack and pantry. I can&apos;t wait to get home and riff off on a theme from a cookbook; about mixing and matching flavours on an impulse. I want to feel a loaf take shape in my hands; I want to fill my house with gorgeous smells. I want to learn new things, new flavours, new techniques.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It&apos;s been so long since I&apos;ve felt this way. And it&apos;s a good way to feel :)</description>
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  <pubDate>Fri, 11 Apr 2008 08:07:07 GMT</pubDate>
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  <description>Eight years ago today, Stephen and I started dating.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My, how time flies.</description>
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  <pubDate>Sun, 30 Mar 2008 08:15:03 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>More Stuff.</title>
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  <description>So there is more stuff. Kitchen Stuff.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name=&quot;cutid1&quot;&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;Set of 4 purple mugs&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;Several miscellaneous mugs&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;Thermos mug&lt;/s&gt;&amp;lt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;Plastic sports water bottle&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;Large nonstick frypan&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;3 saucepans (stainless steel)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;Glass casserole dish (~2L, I think)&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;Stick mixer with a couple of attachments (works fine; I use a food processor instead these days)&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;Espresso coffee machine &amp; bang-bang (works fine, but we have switched to tea at home)&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Glass teapot&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;Set of glass coffee mugs, with sugar holder and milk holder&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Stack of 6ish saucers, blue chequer pattern.&lt;br /&gt;Pink dolls&apos; cradle&lt;br /&gt;Stack of misc dinner plates&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hooray for less stuff.</description>
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  <pubDate>Thu, 27 Mar 2008 09:58:39 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>The cleanup begins ...</title>
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  <description>and as part of that, we&apos;ve got some stuff we want to give away. It&apos;s being posted here, and a couple other places, and  is fair game for whoever asks. We&apos;ll be taking the computer gear to humbug, and donating the other stuff to charity if there&apos;s anything left.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The list is &lt;a name=&quot;cutid1&quot;&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;2 portable filing cases - one plastic, one cardboard&lt;br /&gt;USB-powered desk fan&lt;br /&gt;USB-powered rocketship light&lt;br /&gt;PS/2 keyboard (logitech, multimedia buttons)&lt;br /&gt;Coax cable&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;Webcam&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;IEC power leads&lt;br /&gt;Wireless network card&lt;br /&gt;2 microphones&lt;br /&gt;Handsfree kit (Motorola)&lt;br /&gt;Soundcard&lt;br /&gt;PS/2 mouse&lt;br /&gt;Wireless antenna&lt;br /&gt;USB printer cable&lt;br /&gt;Wireless mini-mouse&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;USB keyboard&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Telstra cable modem (motorola surfboard sb4200)&lt;br /&gt;USB extension cable&lt;br /&gt;American power cord&lt;br /&gt;Several ethernet cables of varying length&lt;br /&gt;&lt;s&gt;One medium size blue Swiss/Fit ball&lt;/s&gt;&lt;br /&gt;17&quot; CRT monitor&lt;br /&gt;Insulated blue lunchbox holder&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;ll be adding more stuff as we go through. At the moment, this is just one room of the house. No prizes for guessing which one ;P</description>
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  <pubDate>Thu, 27 Mar 2008 04:13:00 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>Good news, for a change of pace.</title>
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  <description>So, we got the place we applied for yesterday. Which means we&apos;ll be moving on the 7th or the 8th of April.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;We need to get packed. I have some boxes courtesy of a handsome young man, and will be getting more soon. We also want to move just about every we own into the garage so it&apos;s easy to move it. We&apos;re going to attempt to sort things so that we&apos;ve gone through and thrown out/made a give-away pile before then.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;m looking for help putting our kitchen, our library, and most of our office into boxes. And move furniture downstairs, on Sunday next week, from about 1pm. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I&apos;m looking at doing a lunch of pizza (pizza hut and domino&apos;s are up the road), or we could explore the culinary experience of the nearby indro food court, if people prefer. In the area is also a red rock noodle bar, a subway, and maccas. Other suggestions welcome :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Please let me know via email, mobile, or reply here.</description>
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  <pubDate>Wed, 26 Mar 2008 08:57:52 GMT</pubDate>
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  <description>So, depending how things go, we may be moving next week. Depending, of course, on rental applications, which are ... interesting. Very interesting.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Which is going to total my weekend. Because now I have to pack. My life needs to go into boxes. And I seemingly have a rather full life.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hmm.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Well, I guess I&apos;ll just have to see what happened with the application I put in today.</description>
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  <pubDate>Tue, 25 Mar 2008 07:38:58 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>It never rains but it pours ...</title>
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  <description>Thus far, this month has been unilaterally bad.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;1. My first ever car accident. I forgot about a pole momentarily, and now the car is being repaired. Should get it back tomorrow or Thursday.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;2. The house was burgled overnight. We lost an ipod, a mobile, a laptop - and a full set of house keys. The forensic guy came at 4.30pm, just that little bit too late to get a locksmith in, so that&apos;s happening tomorrow morning first thing.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;3. The body corp guy wants the plasterer to fix the ceiling on Sunday, because apparently it&apos;s urgent. If it&apos;s urgent, fuckwit, why has the hole been there since December? Doesn&apos;t sound &apos;urgent&apos; to me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hopefully, this is all the bad shit I&apos;m due this year, and it&apos;s all over with. I think life is about due to look up.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;By the way - I&apos;m thinking of moving house soon. Seems like a good idea. May need some assistance - paid for with hugs and appropriate refreshments (lunch/dinner/caffiene/snacks/etc), plus warm fuzzies for doing a good deed. Stay tuned for details.</description>
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  <pubDate>Tue, 19 Feb 2008 22:51:03 GMT</pubDate>
  <title>A week and a bit in review ..</title>
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  <description>It&apos;s been a fun week. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Monday was pretty standard. Failed to injure myself at personal training, which was good. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tuesday and Wednesday were uneventful, except that the bastard housemates stole my icecream. A note was left inside the tub this time - we&apos;ll see if that works.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Thursday I had an aromatherapy session, where I learnt that I am feeling tired, low, and otherwise not so hot. Really, ya think? Anyway, it was fun, and now I have a few essential oils I intend to make good use of, as soon as I get an electric burner. Anyone know where I can find a reasonably-priced good one? &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Steve took me out to Two Small Rooms on Thursday night. It was ... well, not bad. But I think I much prefer Bespoke, Joseph Alexanders and Isis. We went to Onyx for cocktails and jazz after dinner, which was pretty good - they have a new cocktail list, hurrah. Although my favourite bartender - the guy with the dreads - wasn&apos;t on, pouty. Oh well, a good night.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Friday was ... friday. Went out to 3 monkeys to see a friend up from canberra, and catch up with other friends :) It was awesome. We bailed around 11.30pm, because I was trashed and staggering. Very, very tired.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;On saturday, we cleaned up the house a bit, and had a BBQ with a similar group of friends. It was a good night, with strange beer which is now looking for a home. I really need to talk to those people more than once every six months ... sigh. I suck at keeping in touch with people.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sunday was a lazy day, as I came down with a lurgy. Sore throat, muscle soreness, occasional fever, headache. It sucked. I spent most of the day sleeping and/or reading. Wanted to knit, didn&apos;t feel up to it, boo.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Monday I called in sick to PT, because yeah. Like hell with the way I was feeling. Tidied up the house a bit, blah. Felt yuck.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tuesday I decided not to go down the coast - too tired, too sick, and I realy didn&apos;t want to overnight in case it got worse and I had to do my sleeping-upright trick. Got a call from the day spa I have a (fantastically cheap) deal with - they&apos;re moving to goodna :( So they wanted to know if I could come in before they moved and get stuff. I said, sure, and got a body wrap and foot massage. They still owe me a hand massage, but that&apos;s okay. I&apos;m sure I&apos;ll get that done soon. It made me feel lovely all over. I cooked a roast for dinner, even. That was good. Need to do that more often, I think.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Today is O-day at UQ. I was going to help out with the humbug stall, but last night ... well, I woke up every 10 min to blow my nose, except when I woke up with a nightmare. I really dislike nightmares. A lot. I couldn&apos;t sleep for half an hour after that, I was too scared. Sometimes, the ability to resume a dream after a brief period of wakefulness is incredibly cool, and sometimes, it really, really isn&apos;t. Last night was one of the latter.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hopefully I&apos;m over the worst of this cold.</description>
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